Digital drawing of a man and woman dancing a tango. Loscotoff 2022
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The Tango | A Short Story

He grabbed me by the waist and pulled me tight against him, a quick snap at the accented staccato as the sextet played on the stage. His arm cradled my back, the roughness of his chin pressed against my temple. The tango was slow, my feet tracing the wood as this man guided me from my place on the floor. His body pressed against me. I could feel the shape of him. The shape of a stranger and not my beloved. My Andriy.

A missile strike.

In the war.

He was left torn.

I was left torn.

They were coming and we decided to stay. We would be brave, it was all we could be. We thought we would photograph and blog and share it with the world. We would document the atrocities. We would be safe in the club’s basement, almost a second home to us now.

Our apartment was gone. Destroyed. But we would not leave. Our weapons were information. And then our weapons were guns. And then bottles filled with rags and gas as the tanks rumbled down our streets.

He turns me about the floor; tracing our toes, walking in a dramatic embrace, with flicks of our feet. His left arm is bent as he holds my right out. He is a grizzly bear in my arms; large and thick. He wears the pants of a soldier but has removed his coat. Sweat glitters on his brow.

I see the shadow of my Andriy, sitting alone in the corner.  Watching me.  The smoke of his cigarette lingers and I can still taste it on my lips; invisible now. 

I remember when he taught me to shoot, his hands on my arms, guiding me to hold the butt of the gun tightly into the nook of my shoulder.  I remember his arms, holding me as the world exploded around us. 

My dress is short and tight, with a torn ruffle at the slit.  My shoes are tall and scuffed.  How long have I danced here in these shoes?  Will I continue to fight in these shoes?  Or will they end up bloody in the street? 

The music picks up its pace as the violins moan their grief of this cruel war and my lost love.  He presses his mouth against mine, bruising me.  I don’t pull back.  I meet him with equal intensity.  He begins to move me off the floor, towards the shadow of my Andriy, smoking in the corner.

We are mothers and wives, we are scientists and seamstresses; we could have left, but we chose to stay.  There is diversity in our choices; to give our children a better future, to support our men who cannot leave, but mostly because this is our city.  This is our home and we will fight to protect it. 

This man is pressing me back and as we pass my love, sitting alone at a table. I reach out to him, wishing he was clear and real and alive; not some ghost of a memory.  I want him to rip me out of this man’s arms.  I want his lips to be on my lips.  His body pressed against mine.  Not this poor substitute. 

My hand reaches out and moves through his cheek, Andriy’s cheek, with no resistance. 

“My Andriy,” I whisper.

His eyes focus on me, only for a moment, and I think perhaps he is real.  Perhaps he can see me.  Perhaps I will finally leave this place with him, the music pulsing in four-four time with my beating heart.  

But I am a finch, frightened to leave, and this club is my birdcage. There is life here and only the memory of Andriy out there.  Only the memory of the life we made. 

Andriy sits in the corner at a broken table, watching the shadow of their old life.  

In this empty club; the windows have shattered and the snow falls through the roof.

He can almost hear the echo of the music, of the tango, when he first met his Bohdana, his gift of God. 

He can see her in her yellow dress, tight and short with a torn ruffle at the slit.  Her high heels are spiked and scuffed. He can see her in the uniform of a fighter, the gun pressed against her shoulder.  He can see her blood, lift like a balloon into the morning sunrise. 

He watches her shadow dance, begging him to join her.  She moves toward him in the movement of the snow and the tumble of the dead leaves across the floor. 

The wind moves through this empty building and he can almost hear her voice whispering in his ear; my Andriy. Her cold caress against his cheek as the snow falls about him.  

He stands and leaves through the hole in the wall, into the empty frozen streets;  the memory of his Bohdana and her undying love.  The memory of everything she was willing to fight for.

Digital Drawing of a dancing ghost in a damaged building, the snow is blowing.  Loscotoff 2022
Bodhana’s Ghost / Loscotoff 2022


When I started writing this week, I saw the tango between a ghost and the lover who has lost them. I imagined an old house and someone coming home (I had not decided husband or wife), alone, with the spirit of their lover still embedded in the house; watching and listening. In their grief, the living person puts on music and begins to sway. Slowly, the ghost begins to dance with them, becoming a tango as the protagonist cries in their grief.

While I imagined my characters dancing in the house, I began to wonder what the story would look like if the person coming home was actually the ghost, going through their routine, not knowing they were the one who was dead. (Perhaps even the idea of walking through life like the dead; simply keeping the routine.) What if the character we think is the ghost is the one grieving? What if they sit there every night, hoping their lover will open the door one last time?

This is where the idea of Andriy and Bohdana began to be born; who is the ghost and who is the grieving soul?

Even further, what if they are both ghosts and both are grieving? What if they are each in their own reality?

That then brings up a deeper philosophical question about what it means to die and what comes after. What is our understanding and experience around death and grief? What if our reality isn’t… real?

Because I live with a sleep disorder that affects my perception at night, I often wake up thinking about these questions of reality, of life and death. I often “die” in my sleep (as my brain and body perceive it) and I wake up in a panic, thinking either I am dead or the people I love more than anything have died. It often makes me question my reality and how the brain interprets stimuli. A few nights ago, I woke up screaming as I threw my body over my daughter who had fallen asleep next to me. I was trying to protect her from the bombs, or perhaps a nuclear blast.

I wanted Andriy and Bohdana to find each other, but that wasn’t this story. And it breaks my heart that it wasn’t their story.

My featured image is a drawing I made of Andriy and Bohdana dancing, not Bohdana with the “grizzly bear” of a man. I wanted the image to be the love between them, the passion they felt for each other before their lives changed. One a ghost, and one the living.

This story was also, very clearly, inspired by and influenced by Russia attacking Ukraine. Bohdana is a Czech/Ukrainian name meaning “God-gift” and Andriy is the Ukrainian name for Andrew, meaning “warrior”. I stand with the Ukrainian people. I have been deeply affected by the woman taking up arms, staying to fight for their country; by maternity and children’s hospitals being bombed.

The story of a young woman and a young man, getting married in a church as the air raid sirens blared, earlier than they had planned, so that they could be together and she could fight, influenced this story. The story of a Ukrainian couple, marrying on the front lines, influenced this story. I don’t want these people to die. I don’t want them to be hurt. I don’t want anyone to die. I don’t want anyone to lose anyone. I’m tired of war and hate.

As a small side note; this prompt asked me to use the term “grizzly bear.” The bear is also a symbol of Russia. While Bohdana dances with the large and muscular man, I don’t make clear, and I don’t necessarily think it’s essential, to identify if he is a Russian soldier or a Ukrainian one. This is her reality and what matters is that it isn’t Andriy. However, the idea that in death she is dancing with those who took her life felt powerful to me. So, the reference to him being a grizzly bear is a connection to his size while also acknowledging the role of Russia.

My great-grandparents were Russian immigrants/refugees in 1906, sailing through Galveston, Texas, and settling in San Francisco. They were Russian Molokans, “Spiritual Christians” with practices similar to European Quakers and Mennonites. While the stories of why they left were certainly very different under the Czar, I still feel a deep connection with the Ukrainians, and my heart breaks for them.

I have included the link to the Immigrant Voice Story of Alexandr Babashoff, an explanation of the Molokan journey when they left Russia.

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Ukrainian Flag by Anna Loscotoff, 2022
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10. A ghost story

Include: tango, diversify, blog, invisible, missile, glitter, scuff, balloon, bird cage, grizzly bear

Read my writing partner Bridgette’s Tale | The Water


Ukrainian women are showing what they are made of in the fight against Russia

“We just wanted to be together,” says Ukrainian couple who rushed to marry amid attacks

Ukrainian couple fighting against Russian invasion marry on the front lines.

Maternity Hospital Bombed in Ukraine – In Pictures

Ukrainian names for girls

Ukrainian names for boys

The Full (and rarely seen) Tango de Roxanne from Moulin Rouge (just the dancing)

One of my favorite movie tangos – El Tango de Roxanne from the movie Moulin Rouge

The Top 10 Tangos in Movies – MsMojo 2017

Immigrant Voices – Alexandr Babashoff – Story of the Molokans

Molokan – Wikipedia

Free Download of my drawing of the Ukrainian Flag – CC BY-NC

Full Tango dance sequence (the unedited dance) from Moulin Rouge

My 52-Week Journey So Far

What is the 52-week short story challenge?

Week 1 – Avalon

Week 2 – The Rifle

Week 3 – The Cardboard Prince

Week 4 – Rapture in Reverse

Week 5 – Drink the Kool-Aid

Week 6 – The Hitchhiker

Week 7 – The Flame

Week 8 – The Community

Week 9 – The Cult of Cait

Digital drawing of a man and woman dancing a tango. Loscotoff 2022
Bodhana and Andriy/ drawing by Anna Loscotoff, 2022

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  1. Wow, just wow. Heart-breaking and so evocative of what the Ukrainians are facing. One set of my great-grandparents came from Ukraine early in the 1900’s, I don’t know the story behind it but if it’s anything like the story of another of my great-grands who came from Czechslovokia, it’s that they were seeking a way out of grinding poverty. There are people suffering from war in so much of the world, I find myself thinking is it part of the essential human condition to come back to war again and again?

    1. I’m hoping you’ll be notified of my responses now… it took some configuring. Thank you for the last few weeks of your comments and for reading my stories. I wish that war wasn’t a part of the human condition, and hope that someday we will get to a point where we can figure out other means of resolution. Unfortunately, I think humans like to fight to a certain extent, just the weapons have gotten bigger. When we look at little kids on the playground, pushing and punching, I think we see how set it is in our nature. I think the people most against war are often also the ones most disinterested in positions of power. And unfortunately, many who strive for power aren’t trying to better the world of those around them. I think the world has rallied around the Ukraine president because he seems to be a good man, no only in this position because he wanted control. His willingness to stand up for democracy is not often seen on such a world stage.

  2. Such an important and well-written story Anna. I’ve read it several times now and feel it gets richer and more vivid with each read. Thank you for putting something so lovely and heartbreakingly beautiful into the world during a time when it’s greatly needed.

    1. Thank you Bridgette, for being such a support. (Hopefully you are getting notice of my response now!) There is a part of me that feels like I know Bohdana and Andriy, and I want so badly for them to be reunited. When I think of the real couples who have decided to stay and fight, together, I am so afraid to hear that one has been killed. Or both. And I know that is the reality as the death toll climbs in this absolutely senseless war.

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